I’m sorry to say that I’ve decided not to continue writing this blog.
I’m having some issues that I need to address and I just don’t want to write any more.
I find myself less and less at the computer these days. I have a pile of unread emails. Also, my daughter has been sick with her fifth bronchial infection this year and since it’s her last year in elementary school, I’ve been busy trying to get her into a good middle school. I’m trying very hard to return to my normal, everyday life and writing a blog is not something I would normally do. However, I am glad that I shared my story and hope that the women who read it were inspired or comforted.
All of my life I’ve been a worrier and now I find that I’m worrying about a cancer recurrence. I think what I need right now is to get into a good support group and to reconnect with the breast cancer mentor that I was assigned through the program, A Buddy for You . I’m sure that I’m not the only cancer survivor to be worried about a recurrence. I’m also hoping to find some women to connect with online. I want to talk to other women going through the same thing
It’s not easy being a breast cancer survivor. People look at me and say “Wow, you look wonderful” and “Wow, look at that cleavage”. What they don’t see is the scared person behind the mask of smiles. They don’t see the person that’s just 6 months past a double mastectomy and one month past breast reconstruction surgery. They don’t know that so far, I’m not real happy with my breast reconstruction. They don’t know how difficult it was to decide to get breast implants. I hesitated and now I understand why——The reconstructed breasts remind me too much of my own breasts that were removed. And my breasts remind me of breast cancer. I’m not sure if other women feel this way. They may just see the positive side of reconstruction and are pleased to have new, perky breasts.
I hope you continue to use this blog. I was honored that Baptist Health South Florida selected me to write about my breast cancer journey. Even though another blogger will soon take over, I hope that I can still share news with you in the future. I pray that all of my future news is good news. God willing, that will be the case.
Thank you again for allowing me to share my story because I enjoyed doing so. And, thank you for your comments. But now I must move on and I hope that you understand my need to step away at this time.